Hit the brakes!

Sorcha's Despair is temporarily on hold.

I have a model from Deviant Art who said she'd send me some reference pictures for that pose. I have a couple of computer models in that pose, which are helpful... however I'm thinking that I need to see it modeled. I'm just not FEELING the anguish, sorrow, despair, hate, anger, rage from the computer models.

I want to be able to put those feelings into the painting.. I must see it.

I downloaded trials of ArtRage 3 and Corel Painter 12. I'm gonna play around with those a little I think.
I also signed up for a year of ImagineFX magazine which I probably shouldn't have done... for financial reasons but I was feeling so down. I wanted it! I can't wait to get the first issue.

Sorcha's Despair - SketchTweaks

Some neck and chest tweaks.... See if these help.

Working on some issues...

I can't wait to start painting her! However I want to nail down some of the things that are still bugging me...

I'm not sure about her feet.... I think the head is a little better. Maybe.

I beginning to try an imagine the background...

Ive been doing it wrong...

So I guess I've been doing my paintings wrong. So I've been watching a ton of videos and reading a bunch of workshops, and just trying to take as much info in as I can on how the "right" way is.

This is something that I want to do as a career so I need to do it right.

www.ImagineFX.com has some amazing work on it. I was so busy looking at all their workshops. I might even look into creating some of my own custom brushes which I've never done before.

I did start a drawing last night. I wasn't feeling well but I couldn't sleep and really felt the desire to draw.

So I'm working on the layout, composition and anatomy. I haven't added clothing yet, because in a critique on Sorcha some concerns about how the clothing worked were raised to my attention. I'm thinking about redesigning them. I had a really good idea, but I'm not sure how it will turn out.. We'll see.

Here is how its progressing so far. I'm not sure the head is right... as my reference for the pose was different. I changed it a little to try and fit the feeling of utter despair I'm trying to portray.

Imagine you've spent your entire life being shunned, and finally someone accepts you despite what they've heard, and what others do to him/her for it. They accept you and love you. Even though you spent a large part of your life hating others, they warm your heart.. and you finally accept them too. However fate tears them away from you.

This is how Sorcha feels. A village burned in the background. A toppling chimney stack attached to a skeleton of a house. Steam, and smoke pour off them. The rain is pouring down, and putting the flames out.. To the right lies a body. (I'm not sure if I should pull it closer or not.)

She was standing staring at the sky, and she drops to her knees and is crying her anguish and sorrow to the heavens, and the sky cries with her.

Newest Idea^^

Trying to build a background...

This is how it started.